If You Only Knew

Here, now and thereafter,,, you have permeated the wall of no return, the choice has been made,,,I shall not depart from this urgency of the unknown that I desperately long for,, your words linger on ,, the intensity of your thrust weakens me,,, the foundations start to give way as I try to escape from the grasp of your awakening spirit,, you have left me defenseless as I search for a refuge,,,your forces have captured me as I am a willing prisoner,, I have fallen prey to your seductive whims,,, I feel your breath on my neck as you walk behind me taking a moment to verify the prize,, I say to you "what is this world coming to things are not the same anytime the hunter gets captured by the game " I set the trap and have fallen into your lair ,,,struggling to be free once again you put your arms around me and pierce the skin of my neck suddenly I become weak as you draw all life out of me as I slowly fall you then pick me up and lay me down and place your body on top of mine,,, you look into my eyes and I smile ,,,,, if you only knew.........

Annus Horribilis , Encore

As the leaves fall and the colours of the Canadian Thanksgiving give way to a November triste of greys and hollow feelings. Looking around me I observe the bland faces of certain peoples. After much obsevation the verdict is in. My family of friends are living hellish moments. Clara, Geoff, myself and others,we have experienced and are living these moments of anguish. Kindness is a heavy price to pay, but we are naive and as I say " the choices we made then,,we live the consequences now. The darkness has yet to englobe us completely, we galantly keep our chin up while building a wall to keep out all intruders. The notion that all is lost is but a fleeting thought quickly extinguished by my perserverance. The storm has ravaged our human landscape leaving collateral damage in view. The meaning of " You are going to want to tend your garden very closely"becomes ever so pertinent. The look of Geoff as I see in his eyes leaves me with a sense of hope as we shall overcome this episode of the unknown moment. The clouds will dissapate and the blueness of the horizon will prevail leaving us all with good fortune. I myself shall not change my ways but rest assured that a lesson has been learned. In the upcoming seance " the luck of the Irish "has become the battle cry. My chosen family has suffered but we become stronger and appreciate the fondness of the other, for without each other there is no reason. Yes this has left deep wounds yet our scars will heal. I look up to the sky and clutch a special prayer card given to me recently and say "It has been an Annus Horribilis " now let the games begin. Merci for one and all my chosen family and to you,,Alpha Dog