Jamie writes to say :I Have Some Great News !!

As I read your letters from the beginning a sense of anticapation arises. Our history started oh so quietly and has now grown quietly there. Your words of love seep into my mind as I remember of the first time I saw your photo there so innocently there . My Love , Babe ,Love Dove are now your words of seduction. I lose all control of my emotions as I allow your terms of AMOUR take charge and lead the way. Our conversations of print and phone are now wanted more then ever before. We both wait anxiously to see , to hear what the next words will say and how the voice will read. I ride the stars of brightness as you light the way to our next beginning . Montréal is on the horizon as we prepare to embark on our final destination. You announce that your time of place is almost over and your change of situation is about to come to another avenue of change. Your smile is almost there as you throw a three pointer of excitement ! I applaud your sureness as you move across the way to score another mark of , xoxoxox !! We have built our trust of each other and let no person lead us not,,, the Ink has dried as we both join hands to travel on this voyage together , you have scored a goal once again into the net,, I applaud your talent of how to. The cry of " love you always " and " with all my heart "becomes your anthem to me as I accept your words and you say " I have some great news "

New Year, New Adventures , New Hope , New Beginnings

The New Year has started its course and anticapating a change has become a theme of hope ! Once was is no longer a sure bet , I withdraw from the Table of Chance as I have been dealt a bad hand of false honesty. You sat cross from me and bluffed your way through , I thought you were playing with me ,, not against me, I lent you my hand outstretched , lest I leave my head in the stars to daydream of what could have been. You said that you were not up for game playing but you play well , you hid your hand and I fell for your prowness ! You won this round but I have quit the table of pseudo- trust , you shall not have me to play again ,, I will move on to the next table , the Table of Honesty, I have been there before, I am a life long member. You were there but for a moment, you tried to bluff and say your cards were strong, but I knew better, you thought short, I went long. I am still in the game, I play to win ,, my card of Values is still the highest card that beats your Ace of lies and deception. The dealer aks me if I want to play another round, I look and see those new players of Trust anxiously awaiting to play, they ask for one chance to show their hand ! The cards are dealt once again , your cards have no value ,, I play to win , I smile as the person across from me says I lay my cards of Hope down to you Michael I want to be your new beginnings !!

Deception ,Distrust, and Dilemma

You say you love me and I want to believe, my feelings for you have been written in your book of wants. The mistrust that hovers over me is my Waterloo. The loss of heightened anticipation has gone to sleep only to wake up at another time another moment ! How do you know what love is ? Is it but a moment or is it real ? When your young and in love you run the gamut of yes to-day maybe forever and then its over ! My degree of trust has gone by the wayside as the stream carries coded messages of what I felt long ago ! You open the door and walk outside towards me to attest of my willingness to embark into unchartered waters. As the winds pick up briskly I turn my mind to the time when things were less blurred and love was carefree. My eyes turn to you as I want to be able to say yes ! My mefiance leads the way as I break away from your lack of authenticity. The unseperables now walk in different directions unable to find there way back to what they had ! The uneasiness of me becomes apparent as I try to decode what you say and what it means. Love has no desire to stay so slowly meanders towards the lighthouse as the beacon of hope diminishes . The Deception of my distrust has become a dead-end a dilemma .

I DECLARE MY LOVE !

You make me feel happy and there are moments that I am delirious ! I think of you often, the silent moments are the most lingering. When you touch me I harden and a rush goes through me like a gush of a geyser . My eyes fixate on you as you surround your presence . Vulnerability keeps me from ceding to your whims of wants ! You play the game well, not showing your hand , a bluff in store maybe. I keep my hand close to my chest as I see the reflections of your desires in the mirror. The songs of love that we would share linger and the beat of there sound vibrates continuosly. Who makes the first move , the touch of your skin permeates to mine and I shiver as the force of you creates osmosis like tendacies. I back away to relieve myself of your strength before that I should succomb to your moment of selfish pleasure. I stay in your sphere of direction knowing that the longer I am in front of you the less will I shall have to say no. Why not let me go to live a montonous blasé life of love lost to never experience again. You say you love me and want to say that I am yours. How shall I know that this is love and you are real ? Ladies and Gentleman, Madames et Messieurs I DECLARE MY LOVE !

JAMIE equals J'AIME

The first time I saw of you , I knew that something inside wanted to know more. My words of introduction slowly traced a line that would lead me to you ! I tread slowly towards you as I see your presence. My eyes close as I imagine you prance across the field as the soccer ball flies through the air ! The basketball glides through the hoop, and the weights from the gym cut through the dampness of the air left from another work-out. The physical you bristles as the sweat rolls down your torso after you leave the yard. I read your letter of request as you shyly inquire about emotions and relationships. The wrong path you took was only a detour of human error , a moment of distress and wrongdoing. You now turn the page to write a new chapter, our meeting sparks a new beginning of the now .My pain of distrust and deception has left scars but you understand as we decide to draw lines that lead us to chance ! The Ducks ,the Fighting Irish becomes our battle cry as we share our Victories and losses but remain united to the final hour. I read the words you sent about Mothers on Mothers Day, your sensitivity is a shining example of who you are, my thoughts linger on to the last word that you write. Your photos speak of you as your eyes long to say Bonjour ! I write this court metrage on the film of us and the trek that we shall embark upon. Jamie,to you I say " Je suis au rendez-vous." Jamie equals J'aime.

ABSENCE ABSINTHE

I have been away , can't really say where, there were no indications or signs, there seemed to be no sign of life but my thoughts ! My mind brought you into focus , as your face dawned the horizon. I longed that you were next to me but to no avail . Maybe it was not to be, another time and another place ! I walked awhile and saw no one ! Everything seemed to be colourless and lifeless, where was I and who brought me here ! Hallucinations danced in my head as the pounding of inner drums reached a crescendo ! The throbbing of my head seemed to diminish as I quickened my pace towards what seemed to be a hill of brush. My legs no longer supported me as I fell to the ground. I fell into a deep sleep once again. The winds of convience swept me up and carried me to higher ground ! I longed to write and then waited for your words to no avail ! Your last letter heightened my clarity of longing, warmed by your affect. The mystery of you and where I was only lowered my spirits. Green was the colour that appeared as I became sodden as your benumbed eyes could only watch with sadness my descent from on high ! My glass was empty as I my mind thirsted from absence absinthe !

Florence

Blonde is her hair, her eyes like precious stones that have yet to be worn. As she walks across the room the light followers her as she arrives to her final destination.