I Am Free

The last few weeks have been most hectic and I at times have had difficulty in staying focused. Million of thoughts running about loosely in all directions. I would be there in the present but unhinged about my awareness. People would address me but I would not really be present. I seemed to be distracted and felt a certain emptiness. I remember my sister Michelle who died so suddenly and not having a chance to say au revoir. I yearn to have her once more by my side. You cannot find peace if you do not live life. Yet I do believe it is possible not be happy and still not be happy about it. It is important to recognize these moments of troubled waters as they do eventually leave like an uninvited guest whos name is not on the guest list. My parents have gone away on a trip for a week and for some reason I miss talking to them on the phone. I love to hear the laughter of my parents when we are discussing a subject on the phone. There are moments when I think that the time clock is advancing and one day shall be their last. I feel that they are my children that I must watch over and not knowing what hotel they are staying at is quite annoying, I shall scold them. I do have a certain peace of mind and I am quite blessed to have the respect and fraternity of my fellow dear friends and wonderful family. Each day is another gift to cherish and discover yet pleasant moments. Like a cloudy day that has overstayed its welcome the sun shines once again to joy and laughter of families and friends conversing to each other. The demon of despondency will flee to other peoples and other places. I am free.